13/09/2023
loneliness was one of the worst parts of my experiences with mental illness, I’ll never forget the crushing pain it caused and how utterly isolating life feels when you feel lonely.
Loneliness is odd though because you can feel it even when in a room full of people, friends, family. Anyone really. My depression at its worst made me feel like I was behind a wall of darkness that prevented me from feeling any real connection to anyone, even myself at times.
Everything felt so bleak and empty and lifeless. The desperation to not feel lonely anymore was so intense. I’m thankful to not be in that place anymore, mentally and physically a lot has changed since I was last in a deep depression.
And what’s different now as I struggle this hard time is that I haven’t felt that intense isolation as before 🌺 there are times my brain takes me to a bad place and for a short amount of time those feelings rise, but they don’t stay anymore. Love is so powerful and the love in my life will forever be the guiding light.
“In many parts of this world water is
Scarce and precious.
People sometimes have to walk
A great distance
Then carry heavy jugs upon their
heads.
Because of our wisdom, we will travel
far for love"
Hafiz 🍷