12/09/2025
Hi folks - it's been a while!
I've just been working on some bits for the HUK market this weekend and realised how out of the game I've been!
I have had a heck of a health journey this year... that included starting an intense therapy programme which was supposed to change my life - but instead the facilitators traumatised me further and reenforced all the unhealthy views I have about myself. This happened back in May, dragged on for two months before I had to pull myself from the service, and I've only just been discharged. What's worse, is you can't access any alternative care until they discharge you so I've just been keeping my head above water. I need additional therapy now to get over that experience.
Alongside this I've been diagnosed with ME (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome), we're exploring whether I have Endometriosis, and trying to find the root cause of my IBS. I've also been trying to work out my diabetes diagnosis alongside my autism palate (spoiler, its f**king hard! 😅), and I have an open referral with the eating disorder clinic which again couldn't be progressed because i was under the above therapy (they also ignored communication from the ED clinic when they tried to talk to them about working something out which didn't help).
Even as I write all that out - I still feel like I'm just being weak and I need to just plod on like everyone else does so clearly i still have a lot of work to do!
I loooove this time of year though, so I hope once it gets colder and I get more settled into a cosy routine I may be able to pull my finger out and start posting more. I still have my website www.lotusscents.co.uk which is up to date on stock. Sadly I do just about scrape through each month money wise, so I don't have the finances to add seasonal items as I'd like - I can only reinvest what I make to grow the business so it's a slow burner. But I think I need to slowly work through things at my own pace to find a good balance and find some purpose in life.
Thank you for staying along with the ride. I hope this didn't sound too woe is me - part of my neurodivergent brain is feeling like I have to explain myself to people. Probably something I should work on. If you made it to the end - you can have a cheeky 10% off voucher - THANKYOU10 💚
My laptop is on its last legs (which doesn't help my case either because my phone also is so i can't do anything on there either) so i can't make any images so have a picture of my lovely boy Parker instead 😊🐶
