12/03/2025
So book of faces wants to know what is on my mind? Okay here it is, #1 November 22nd was my stepdad Bruce's birthday 🎂, I cried all day, #2 December 2nd was the day we lost him 14yrs ago, and I still to this day wish it would've been my life not his that was taken. Then there's my dad who we lost on May 14th and again it should have been my life not his. With dad Any time I would learn something new from my doctor's,he was always there to tell me I would be okay. When it was time for family gatherings he would always say if I could get there and wasn't feeling well he would make sure to get me back home. Yet since I've lost both of them I'm lost, I've given up on being the person I should be and now just stay home away from Everyone. It's insane that I just found out things about my own close familys health that I should have known months ago, but I don't understand why no one bothered to even tell me? So book of faces, I'm through, I just want to spend my days in my house and not bother anyone else anymore. To my family I'm sorry I haven't put in more effort to be around and I love you all. I have completely failed everyone I care about
