03/12/2026
It snowed like a snow globe today in Madison, Wisconsin! This weather is WILD! But as I watched the snow flurry from the hospital, something miraculous happened. It was literally snowing up (or so it looked) in between the tall buildings enclosing the hospital courtyard. A scene that reminded me distinctly on one of the worst days ever that Eva spent in rehab. To see this again — big fluffy flurries going upwards from a hospital room — would usually send me into a small spiral. But today, it didn’t. Today, it was just beautiful. Even though Eva wasn’t happy. Even though we were there. It was just pretty. Not triggering. Just pretty.
I don’t often love spring. It’s too in-between for me. But spring does serve as a beautiful reminder that dying things can come back to life, sometimes from almost nothing. Sometimes they don’t. And that is real and that is sad. But sometimes, they do. And that is miraculous. When Eva got her Baclofen Pump ~6 years ago and they told us it was going to have to be replaced in six years, I remember hearing that and thinking wow we will be lucky if we make it past this year. I remember hearing that information like it was information that I was never going to need. But here we are. Here we are. She got her pump replaced yesterday and, I don’t know what else to say other than won’t He do it. It will absolutely not look like the life we order up for ourselves. But wow, what a life. And as hard as it is sometimes… Many times… How beautiful. I I’m so grateful that God is allowing me to live it. And that He has allowed Eva to continue to live it with us. Grateful grateful grateful. Gratitude abounds. Thank you for being here and for lifting her up all these years. We see you, we feel it, she feels it, and we are deeply thankful. 🤍
