06/06/2026
I want to be entirely transparent about what’s going on in my life right now and why I haven’t been my normal very responsive self. My mom told me that my dad has some sort of blood cancer. I think she’s really trying not to stress me out because everything she’s told me has been very vague, and I’ve been too overwhelmed to really question but at the last appointment he was told that without any sort of clinical trials or treatment he’s got about a year to a year and a half. My parents have been married my whole life, my dad is a huge part of my life. He’s definitely in my top three favorite people that exist. We are really close. So literally if I drop a dollar on the floor, I will cry because I’m too overwhelmed to pick it up. I understand if you have to replace me for window painting or anything, but I am still working on getting around to everything and I’m really trying not to lose the money because that’s something I just cannot afford right now but also I don’t want your business to suffer because I’m suffering so if you have to make the tough decision, no hard feelings, I just hope you come back to me for the next go around.
I don’t know what to do. He’s the primary breadwinner in the family as well, so I don’t know if I would be expected to take over his business which is landscaping. I know that my business is not enough to support my family. My sister has down syndrome and my mom hasn’t been in the workforce for 30 years or so? Anyway, my brain is just beyond buzzing and that on top of the chronic pain issues and moving my things and stuff that I am pretty sure most of you already know about, it’s just a little extra too much right now. You all are the most amazingly supportive group of people that I’ve ever met and I love you so much but I felt like I owed you an explanation for why I've been so aloof. I even know that when I’m painting I’m usually a lot more social than I’ve been so if I was sort of short or didn’t seem in particularly friendly, I sincerely apologize. I don’t think I was, but I’m really stuck in my own head right now so it’s a distinct possibility. AnyWho, below this line I am just posting the plan for accountability sake because if I make a plan in private, I feel more comfortable changing it, but if I make a plan public, I feel like I have to hold myself to it so feel free to ignore this.
Right now the plan is to finish imagination station on Sunday or Monday, add a few things to hometown vet because I feel like it wasn't my best work. In the evening of Sunday or Monday touch base with the apothecary for what they would like on their windows, I have a friend Reikia that would like me to do her logo and some patriotic stuff and I’m hoping I can get that done Tuesday, I need to get in touch with the salon and see what they want and if I get a response, then I couldn’t get that done on Wednesday...Thursday... whatever day I am not doing the salon. I need to paint Chipley nutrition. Then I work Friday in Rosemary. then touch base with critter care about if they would like to switch to summer or Fourth of July.
And then over the weekend, I need to figure out why I got charged $99 from a website hosting site that I do not have a website on, and check why I don’t think my Google Voice number is working anymore because I feel like I’ve had a lot of people say they were going to call or text me and I’ve not received any. And then the Monday after this upcoming Monday, I need to get in touch with my doctors to make appointments because I am significantly overdue. Lol. Anyone want to be my accountability buddy? Lol.
But of course there is still rain in the forecast so idk how that will effect things! But the best laid plans and all that.
