01/15/2026
The start of a new series of work that I began towards the end of last year. I had plans to complete so many pieces before the holiday rush, but eventually I accepted that this was not in the cards. What I really needed to do was let go of the many self-imposed pressures I was piling on my own shoulders, and take. my. time. Sounds simple and reasonable? Sure. Feels excruciatingly painful? YES.
I had to deal with so many difficult emotions and thoughts that came up in the process of 'not meeting my own expectations,' not just in this one situation, but in many others. All while never giving myself permission not to know things, to need help, or to mess up.
I didn't expect all of this to hit me so hard at this time, but given that 2025 was the year that actually made me kind of miss 2020 π’, it's not so surprising that walls of emotion came crashing down. I think we've all been carrying a lot (and oh boy, the march goes on), but I'm learning that being kind to myself, though it feels wildly counter-intuitive, helps me let my guard down and see so many more possibilities that seem unavailable when I'm isolating and being hard on myself. It might just be the thing that allows me to move forward, not all on my own, but through the reliance on the strength and power of those around me. Turns out, the best things can happen when you realize how imperfect we are and how much we all need each other π€
Title TDB, 36" x 24" , paper and acrylic on wood panel.