14/02/2023
What do you think? I am only an amateur poet, please be nice lol 🤭. This poem came to be late at night, when I was unable to sleep, my mind, my thoughts were running wild. 😴So I got out some paper and started to scribble. The poem has some personal aspects to it that I thought would be helpful to share with the world. Throughout my journey which I sometimes feel is reset every 24 hours- I go through these conflicting ideas that bulldoze other work that I have been working so hard onto to conquer. It is easy to wave round the flag of positivity and say just yourself, you are such a babe 💗. It is not reality. I know for myself the work, that I put in can be so fragile sometimes against external factors. It is almost as though you are forever in an never ending cycle of self acceptance but that old, unhelpful, destructive, sabotaging version is yearning for that external validation and is driven by that external locus of control. In the past I have been challenged when Ive said well XYZ must be true because here is “evidence” that shows that these vials of hatred that I am spewing to myself is actually true because it is wasn’t the case I would have got a different result. Some days I feel like I can get through the day, all the work I have been doing , I have been slowing being able to squeeze the absolutist thinking, the negative thought process , but some days it feels like your worth as person is determined by how people perceive and receive me, which has to change. So long story short. Whether it is valentines day or not , try you best (I know it is not easy – this poem just poured from out of me) to delete other people opinions or views on you. I know not getting a compliment or acknowledge can seriously shake that wobbly new foundation that you are trying to work on but trust the process and as one of my favourite quotes say “stop burning yourself trying to be everyones cup of tea!” 🍵 No-one that you are crushing on or you respect or look up to value your worth didn’t say anything today. Just go back and think well I know I am good enough and know I look good , so there !!
Sending virtual hugs, youre truly awesome 🤗🤗🤗💌🦋💐
HPS ###
