04/27/2022
It’s week 4 of the and this kitchen project has me doing some serious
reflecting. So buckle up.
There are so many opportunities to do the “easy” thing when renovating. It would be so much
easier to put another coat of paint over the painted wallpaper. To add another layer of flooring over the already damaged and uneven layers. But after too many coats of paint, the wallpaper
wouldn’t be able to hold the weight. After so many layers, the floor would begin to encroach on
the ceiling. Obviously, it would take a LOT of layers for that to happen.
But these examples made me think about my commitment to doing the “right” thing, which is
often times not the easy thing. I’m not going to continue to bury 90-year-old hardwoods because
it’s “too hard” to peel the layers or because I might not like what I find.
I know that doing the “right” thing is worth it, even if it won’t be easy. I know that this home
deserves it even though so many others didn’t see it or just didn’t know how to do the right
thing.
After a few years of therapy and a lot of hard work, I’m starting to figure out that I also deserve
it. I deserve to be able to do the right thing for myself. It wasn’t easy to peel back all the layers
and not know who I was underneath. But it was worth it because I have rebuilt something even
better.
Doing the work, removing the damage, repairing, and rebuilding is all worth it. Healing is worth it.
As a side note, I did not rip up my floors last week as planned because I was really anxious
about the bottom layer potentially being asbestos. I did the right thing for my health (mental and
physical) and sent some samples for testing. Which may not end up being the easy thing for my
budget. Instead, I did some more priming and patching. I think I might get to painting this week.
If you read this whole thing, thank you for being here and drop a 💜 in the comments. I freaking appreciate you.
And lastly, go check the link in my bio to see all the progress in the other participants’ spaces
this week!