I never really learned what it meant to just be a kid. At a very young age I started doing more then what a 9 year old child should have been doing. I started Cooking full meals for our family cleaning house doing all the chores a mother should have been doing. But my mother was a working mother who had to hold down two jobs to support her family. She then started going to school and teaching hers
elf a lot of different trades which then she past them trades on to me as I become an Adult. I was always Accustomed to being around primarily adults, I was always mature for my age. Even my own friends often annoyed me during my adolescent years. I had a lot of people who invested in me, and I excelled at most of my many and varied hobbies. I did well in school, often. Looking back, I’m sure I was quite smug , although I didn’t realize it at the time. Unfortunately, self-awareness wasn’t something I learned until many years later. In high school, I began to tire of the pressure placed on me by my family and their high expectations. I gradually stopped my extra-curricular activities, including music and art lessons, and chose to just finish high school and help take care of my Parents who Both had Copd. I graduated and then went off to college to become a medical assistant but in college, I was involved in a few outside activities and jobs. But i could never just get what i felt i needed out of it. I did not finish college as I ended up getting pregnant and become a single mother myself. The man I got pregnant by was young and I didn't think he was ready to settle down with a family so I made some wrong decisions on my own and started rasing my daughter by myself. I then lost contact with her father. But I was never one who saw myself with a family. Not wanting to be tied down by the constraints of a husband and kids, I always assumed I’d never marry. But then I met My first Husband in 1995 and agreed to marry him after so many of my friends and family pointed out what a great couple we made. and then we got married in 1996. We stayed married for ruffle 9 years and then got a divorce in 2005 which is when he married my blood cousin. In that Marriage I gave birth to Two more beautiful girls. All three of my girls are my world. My reason for Living... I have Raised all my girls pretty much on my own. As the husband never had it in him to know how to raise kids. I did how ever have the the help of my mother and my sister. I have lost Both my Parents and a lot more Family then I even care to get into details about. I did how ever get back with my oldest daughters father who i had found many years later and thought he was the one for me. He was my everything. I gave him my all. But then just out of no where he decided i wasn't the one for him and he up and left us too. I will always have love for this man as he was the only man I have ever Truly been in love with. Any ways I am still a single mother as you can tell that didn't work out either. I have it in my head now that I am destine to die alone and with out being able to sharing my love I have to offer to anyone. So I have decided to dedicate the rest of my life to my Online Business. And being able to leave something behind for my Girls. So that they may not have to go through the struggles i have had to face in my life Time. I will admit Running your own business is no piece of cake.I have no Ideal what I am doing... but Neither is raising a family. But I believe starting a business is a means of creating a better life for My kids. I have never been a quieter I refuse to give up and not try to make something of myself. I’m am proud to say that this new role suits me. I’m driven, not to do great things for myself, but to guide my girls on to even greater things. Even though So many People may leave you and abandon you in your time of need. Does not mean you can not move forward and make great things happen for yourself. NO ONE HAS YOUR BACK LIKE YOU HAVE YOUR OWN. SO DONT EVER GIVE UP GET UP AND MAKE THINGS HAPPEN FOR YOURSELF. I still don’t know how i will ever make it in general sometimes, but I know how to distinguish between what I want and What needs to be done. so Despite a lifetime of often falling short of my own true potential, I’ve always held on to a quote by the writer James Baldwin: “The world is before you, and you need not take it or leave it as it was when you came in.” That always sounded like something I wanted to do. I just never knew how. The moment my girls entered the world, I knew I had achieved it.
