04/29/2026
Everyday I still think that having a third kid is bonkers.
And here's the thing . . .
Since Beau was unplanned and a total surprise, it has given me a chance to release control. To let go of "the plan".
As a certified type-A, control freak, this is never something that comes easy or by choice. So when given a precious gift that forces me to be more flexible and change "the plan", wow what an eye opener.
They say the third kid is along for the ride. But truly, it's me who's along for the ride. All those pre-baby plans are still the post-baby plans while forcing me to go with the flow.
And the wildest part, all of the things I've done with Beau at under 10 weeks old, have made me a calmer, better mom. Even when he's crying, squirming, nursing (most of the time in the presence of two older, feral sibs) it's showing me a side I didn't know I had. A side that doesn't have to control every little thing - and honestly, that has been so good for my nervous system.
Do I still lose my s**t daily? Of course. But this small shift of calm and flexibility has taught me so much about myself.
Thank you universe for this perspective. For giving us Beau and me a reason to relinquish all of the things.
I know I am becoming better because of it.
